APRIL 13, 2026. UNKNOWN TIME.

I miss them.

I miss them horribly.

You might even say, I miss them terribly.



But of course...

Not in a bad way,

But also not in a good way.



Its more like a sour and bitter moment.

Sometimes I even wonder if I made the right choice.

Did I?



I think I didnt,

But I don't know if I did.

I speak before I think.



And just like that...

Everything is RUINED.



My feelings aren't conflicted.

My thoughts are somewhat conflicted.



"Maybe this is the best for me." I thought.

"Maybe in the end I did hurt them." I thought.

"I wish i thought it through, before I spoke." I thought.



Yet somehow I find myself crying.

Crying for them.

Yet they wont show up of course.



Why would they?

I hurt them in the end.



SONG OF THE DAY!!

APRIL 14, 2026. 9:46 PM

I wish that I could explain my feelings, in excruciating detail.

None of that "I don't know how I feel" stuff...



For example; "Whenever I'm sad, or even upset, I feel like my heart is pumping and I can feel like everything is spiraling around me."



That's a good example yeah?

In my Opinion, it is.



Want another one?



"There is this quiet ache in my chest, just resting and nestling there. Soft but persistent longing for something or someone that I cant quite reach anymore. Whenever I listen to songs you would listen to, my mind drifts back to the memories, creaking fake scenarios, replaying moments in my head that still hold so much meaning to me. I long for your voice."



Too bad I cant say it to you and just write in this stupid poem right?

Right.



SONG OF THE DAY!!!

APRIL 29, 2026 UNKNOWN TIME

Every time I think about what happened that day,

I can't help but feel a bit sad and anxious.

I can't help but feel this weird feeling in my stomach...



It's an uncomfortable feeling.

Its the same feeling.



I would be lying if I said that I'm already used to the anxious feeling.

Its unpredictable and comes in all shapes and forms, and of course it comes when I'm overthinking and I don't want to ruin things.



Anyways, i'll be in the comfort of my own bed and catching Z's.